I’m turning 24 in three weeks, and lately I’ve been feeling a sense of dissociation from everyone I care for deeply.
The more I talk to certain friends the more I feel like they don’t really care about me like I thought I did.
This thought doesn’t quite depress me.
In fact, it kind of feels like I’m just ready to depart on my journey to a country unknown to me..and where I know absolutely no one.
I guess I’ve already left in my heart.
I kind of want to make this a big deal; I kind of want to talk to them and tell them how much I do not feel for them anymore and just how worrisome that really should be.
But I feel too far gone.
I don’t quite know what to do but to starve for the attention I need someone to give me after they notice that I’ve been slowly disappearing.
And a cheeseburger.
Definitely need to starve myself from that.
I’m a bit chubby