When I was younger, I did not know true determination. I did not dream; I only escaped reality. School was easy, but as an adult I see it may just have been because the education system is flawed in the way that it lets down both the higher and lower skilled students. In the back… Continue reading Day 319- Determination
Let’s look at how complex my thoughts have been these past few days, shall we? In no specific order, here are some of my thoughts: I really need to work on my bullet journal. Wow, it’s taken me 3 days to finish this one movie. At least it’s good. I want to die. Depression is… Continue reading Depression: my own mind turned enemy.
I’m on another bout of depression. It brings me to tears when all I’m doing is working on my bullet journal; when I’m happy I’m motivated enough to keep working on something new. My depression keeps me away, makes me angry, makes me miserable. Thank God, my mother understands now and does not get her… Continue reading It Holds Me like No-one Else Will
Hi, so let me be 100% real with you. I don’t mean to be depressing. I meant for this blog to be something else entirely but it’s turned into a sort of journal. Which, honestly, is probably best for me. You know, there are things I can’t tell people that know me. Things that would… Continue reading Lost
I’m turning 24 in three weeks, and lately I’ve been feeling a sense of dissociation from everyone I care for deeply. The more I talk to certain friends the more I feel like they don’t really care about me like I thought I did. This thought doesn’t quite depress me. In fact, it kind of… Continue reading Left before we had a chance
So, 9 months ago I got played by my closest guy friend. He completely led me on while knowing my feelings for him. How could he not? I mean, I did tell them about it. Honestly, I was blind as one tends to be when they really like someone. Afterwards it took me three months… Continue reading Not your Wife/Girlfriend/Mother
I guess you could call me a failure when it comes to keeping in touch with my goals. So yeah, I told myself I’d write more. I’d study more. I’d prepare myself for the future I want more. I didn’t quite do that the whole time between my last post and this one. However, I… Continue reading Failure